21 sounds so old. i don't feel 21. i don't even feel 18. when did i stop being a teenager? how am i going to be a senior? i feel like i've just begun college, and now i'm leaving? how am i going to find a place to live, a job, a community of friends and loved ones to enjoy life with and confide in... in less than a year? i think i'll be ready... but i'm scared... not being able to know, to plan, to even guess what God will come up with by then. yet i'm so glad that i've learned, especially this summer, how much He really does know me better than i know myself... knows where i will thrive, what i was made for, what will excite me and bring out the best in me... and sometimes it really amazes me.
1 O LORD, you have searched me and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O LORD.
5 You hem me in—behind and before; you have laid your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain.
7 Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me,"
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you.
13 For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

Psalm 139:1-14

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