not nice

i realized this morning that i am really not a very nice person. i do want to learn to love people fully, but doing good deeds randomly is just not my thing. i long to be authentic; to be a part of healing and bring wholeness, but i very much dislike making small talk. i want real, lasting relationships, not to be fake-nice to lots of people i don't know. and for me, it would be fake. so i am perhaps not so nice, but i think i like that about me.

1 comment:

Emily said...

i know what you mean.

that doesn't make you a not nice person.

you just need more depth.

that makes you an awesome person in this shallow world.

p.s. sorry i haven't called you. i'm not a nice person.